TICK TOCK

I can't sleep. It's 1:37 am, and I am sleepless here AGAIN. Tomorrow I have temp work as a personal contractor doing data entry. It pays really well, and it's the first "job" I have had in almost a month. I suppose I am excited about working. It's silly, but I am so looking forward to serving a purpose, no matter how banal the task may seem. Funnily enough, I am watching an old episode of The Twilight Zone which I have seen before about a woman who dreams things that come true. My neck and back started hurting again on if Saturday night, the same pain like I just got in the accident and have whiplash. It's terribly frustrating. Also, I'm pretty positive I have Restless Leg Syndrome. It doesn't feel like pin and needles like most people do, but I can't stop moving my legs. I feel the urge to keep kicking them when I lay down, and tap/kick when I sit. It has gotten much worse lately. People have been complaining about how annoying my leg kicks have always been, but I've never seemed to have a problem with my legs at night until now. I had so much fun last night. I sang on stage for the first time ever, something I have been aching to do for YEARS. It felt so good to do something I have always wanted to, but didn't for fear of sounding terrible. Last night, I didn't seem to notice and no one seemed to care. Also, a week or two ago I dreamt I could fly. It was amazing. I'm not sure if it was brought upon by recent episodes of West flying in Heroes or what. Although, Peter Petrelli and his brother both flew last season and I didn't dream it then. I have wanted to fly in my dreams for so long and have been completely unable to do it. I have never felt in control when I would attempt to fly before. I would go swinging through the air, as if swept up in a hurricane. In this dream, I only felt as if the speed was too much and I might lose control for a minute. It was a very uplifting and empowering dream.

Flying
To dream that you are flying, signifies a sense of freedom where you had initially felt restricted and limited.