Mommy Notes

My Mom has this thing she does....she writes me letters. My mother can't say she is sorry very often. I suppose this is where I get it from. We are both so damn stubborn, we can't admit we are wrong. It's easier for us to write things down. You can lay the truth out, bare and raw, but keep some dignity. Not only does my mother write me letters if we have argued and she is wrong, but she often leaves notes on my pillow for me to find upon returning home. I have often had a good cry, a drunken night, and then tears on my pillow. The only solace will be my mother's words of hope. Here is something she left me in August, when I was terrified of the future. The Bells were about to leave, I felt lost, alone and much like a failure. Then these words-----

I am making a bulletin board on life's journey and thought of you when I saw these quotes. You are amazing, and will have an amazing life! Love, Mom.


"As I walk, As I Walk, The universe is walking with me"- Navajo

"It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are"- e.e. cummings (a fav of mine)

"The beginning is always today"- Mary Wollstonecraft

"There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. That will be the beginning"- Louis L'Amour

"Faith is taking the first step, even when you don't see the whole staircase"- Martin Luther King

"The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be the beginning"- George Baker

I wrote this after finding the note on my pillow.....

*I came home after being with my friends
Drinking, not thinking
I found this note from you
You give me my balance
Reminding me where I came from
I thank you for that
Thank you Mommy
Thank you for being my rock


-----I thought maybe some of you could appreciate these quotes too. Sometimes nothing makes any sense at all. But then someone remembers you out of nowhere, or you get a phone call, or read some words that give you hope.